Another year gone by, but not much has changed. I wish I could be optimistic about the upcoming year, but things still look grim.
It's ironic that I received tenure this past year, meaning that my job is fairly stable from here on out (not a certainty, though, with that nutty governor in New Jersey), yet my life seems so very unstable and uncertain. The stress of it all has been overwhelming and depressing. I am not sure where I am going here because I just don't want to vent and spew all the details.
Despite the personal financial crisis that is looming, I am taking a short trip to Mexico next week. Flying down on frequent flier miles and visiting on the cheap. It will be good to have a change of scenery and more sun and warmth. Is it the smartest thing to do? Probably not.
I am not sure why peace of mind and stability in my life continues to elude me. There have been poor choices and gambles that have not paid off along the way, but there has also been a lot of bad luck. I am not sure why.
So here I go, trying to survive, trying to keep my head above water, struggling to overcome the stress and the worry.
Happy (?) New Year...